Regrets and Broken Hearts.

so i dont wanna be depressing or something, but you my dear readers, are my followers. And i must speak.

a few months ago i asked my former crush if he liked me, he said no. Big deal right? i didnt really care, i was just kind of mad that he totally acted like he did. Anyways, the next time i seen him, the tension was so thick you could dut it with a knife. Now a few months later things are pretty normal, i just cant talk or look at him anymore. Weird. anyways the only thing is i regret asking him, because now i dont like him. It's sad but eh. The thing is i am totally sure that he DID like me, and was lying. Whatever. Im not gonna do anything about it. If we go a few days without seeing eachother or over breaks thigns become awkward again, its just so weird.

Heartbreak, i can't say that i honestly loved, loved him, but i really did like him. I imagined so much for us once we would "go" out. Stupid i know. I know i said it didn't matter, but it kinda, sorta did. When i found out he didnt like me, i felt my face flush BRIGHT red, and my face just collapsed. I was so sad. I did not cry about it, but i was so embarassed. I didnt go to school for TWO days after that. Over a guy? yeah, i know stupid. But girls, please don't like a guy do this to you. You're my dear reader, and i even though im just starting out i care about you guys. :)
i'm over it now, but then i felt like i wanted the world to end. To just collapse around me. And guys please don't be mean when telling a girl you don't like her, or rejecting her. I'll give you two dollars, a kiss, and a bag of gummie worms if you're nice!

and here's a coincidence;
the day before i asked him i was extra loud and asked my friend if she was coming to the school dance. Why was i being loud? because he hasn't came the school dances in MONTHS and i wanted him to know when it was and that i would be there. mhmm. anyways next week, at the dance. Guess who's there? him. of all the times he decides to come to this dance AFTER i tell him and AFTER he knows im going. So what do YOU think dear readers?

Did he like me? Does he like me? or he NEVER liked me.
Personally i'm going witht he last one. He doesn't.